Hello and good luck.

Sorry for the long absence my friends and random readers,allot has happened to me in the last few months allot of which took me by surprise as well.One thing I have learned for sure is my lack of perfection and the many glaring deficiencies which the lord wanted to highlight and make me change.I had built a image up in my mind of how good or strong I was in certain areas and the felt I should rightly be corrected in this ha.all in all I feel allot like a failure allot these days which good for me as I have been quite assured in myself for many years and now each day I see how much of a failure I am and how much I need Jesus,at this point I would rather be a colossal mistake maker and be dependent on the lord than do everything right.

There is of course no fear of that ,as I make mistakes on a hourly basis it seems even I try my best to avoid such things.I think I failed in everything from my work to being a good boyfriend dad or dad to be, but It's good because all the pillars I have built under my pride have been getting knocked down one by one and in its place I am working on having the lord be the only thing holding me and living in me.

Its been difficult to hear the ones I love tell me how I am failing or have failed day after day,but its been the greatest thing I could ask for is the honesty of others helping me to change. So even if I grind my teeth a bit, or get discouraged, its all for the best and I can learn from it no matter what.thanks to those of you who have been a support and help all these years to me,and the rest of you well......... just kidding I love ya'll. Take care and have a fun time ahead.